I wonder what is in next in my life. You were my life daddy, my everything. We had time to say goodbye but thought we had longer. I am learning to live alone, miss my best friend, my everything. I miss coming home and having someone ... I need help with things and hate to ask others. You were my help, my savior, in all situations...
I wonder where to go from here. It has been almost two years. I am not sure what to do next. I was never one to have goals. You were my goal and my goal maker. I followed you. You took care of me even as independent as I am.
I wonder how I will feel in five years, one year, 6 months... I find myself smiling instead of crying at memories or stories being told. That is an improvement I didn’t think was possible.
I wonder if I will ever love again, or trust anyone as fully as I did you. No one can compare.
I wonder where you are. I am sure you are in a better place but it hurts that you can’t share it with me. I see the signs you have sent when I desperately needed them and opened my eyes so I can see more. I am sure I have missed some. I hope to see all I can.
I wonder when we will meet again. I will be ready.
