Gratitude ... V

I want to let you know that I love you, and I have learned a lot from this "relationship". I promise you that I will do my best to make you feel loved and secure, even though there are a lot of miles between us.

Thank you for making my life so much more meaningful and giving me this chance to tell you what love means to me. 

Now is the hardest part for me to do. I have to say goodbye... I love you with my heart and soul and I want you to know that I will really miss you. 

 It is impossible to rid myself of all my feelings, of all this sorrow that weighs down on me like bricks sinking to the ocean’s sandy bottom. I see myself floating in the great abyss of anguish and it is all I can do to keep from drowning. Maybe I should stop trying to stay afloat. Maybe I should let the current of regret and memories wash me away.

Before you go, let me remind you of that you are leaving behind a girl with the ability and the desire to love you unconditionally. A girl who will never question her feelings, who will do and has done everything for you that’s humanly possible.

I sleep alone like I used to sleep before I met you. I forgot how lonely it was to wake up with no one there. I got so used to waking up to that sleeping face of an angel that now it haunts my dreams. In these dreams you are mine and no one else’s. 

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on the unsuspecting.

The memories of our happiness fade with each rainy day of solitude I endure. My love is steadfast. It is forever and because of this, it is deeply hideous. 

Life challenged us to deal with this to learn from each other and as everything in life, to take the best from it. I’ve learned so much of you and I’m grateful for having met you. You shined my life at different levels. You created such beautiful and wonderful feelings on me! You supported me and encouraged me so much, more than I did by myself. Grateful for having made us crossed in this life path.

Just remember you’re here to be happy, to love and to be loved with heart and soul baby. You deserve the best and I wish you get it at every level. Never accept less than what you deserve. Take everything that is not making you happy away from you, you won’t regret it. It might be painful but it’s necessary.

Please, take care of yourself. Don’t worry about replying if you’re going to say good bye or that you respect my decision, I appreciate that but please, don’t say it. Believe it or not your words will hurt, they’re hurting already. I know it baby, no worries. I’d wish to have met you in another life where I could love you as I dream to.

Always going to be you....