They said it'd get better ....

No matter how hard I try to concentrate on other things and sparking, my thoughts keep going back to him.

I have a hole in my heart that only my dad can fill. He was my rock and always will be as I listen to my inner voice recalling his strong assurances that I could do anything I put my mind to.

My dad taught me what unconditional love is. He was not the one to come right out and say "I Love You and he was not the lovey dovey huggy kind of guy BUT he was one to always be there to bail me out of whatever situation I managed to get myself into and he NEVER gave up on me. I was never a secure teenager and loved to party in my young adult years, how he put up with me I will never know.

I am trying my best to keep my promise to take care of myself. How I just wish I had learned more from you . The last few months you tried to cram showing me how to mow the lawn, use the weedwacker, edge the walkway, drain the furnace, replace circuit breakers, and on and on. Oh Dad, I just didn't have enough time to take it all in. so if you are listening dad and reading this could you send an extreme home makeover this way.

The hole in my heart remains and I try to keep it plugged with memories of you,..

Daddy 💔 💔

The loss of a father
Is a heavy burden to bear.
He's a source of quiet strength
That is so missed when he's not there.

Take comfort he's in Heaven,
And looking down at you.
He'll be there through the coming years,
Watching over and guiding you.

He's your very own guardian angel,
And he'll be with you to the end,
When you meet again in Heaven,
And your broken heart will finally mend.

Nnow that man who loved me,
And wrapped me in arms so strong
Has gone where I can't reach him,
But my love for him lives on.

I'll keep his memory alive,
and honor all he believed,
And just feel so very grateful
For all his love that I received.

Martin Garrix & Dua Lipa - Scared To Be Lonely (Acoustic)

It was great at the very start

Hands on each other

Couldn't stand to be far apart

Closer the better

Now we're picking fights and slamming doors

Magnifying all our flaws

And I wonder why, wonder what for

Why we keep coming back for more?

Is it just our bodies? 

Are we both losing our minds?

Is the only reason you're holding me tonight?

Because we're scared to be lonely?

Do we need somebody just to feel

Like we're alright?

Is the only reason you're holding me tonight?

Because we're scared to be lonely?

Too much time, losing track of us

Where was the real?

Undefined, spiraling out of touch

Forgot how it feels

All the messed up fights and slamming doors

Magnifying all our flaws

And I wonder why, wonder what for

It's like we keep coming back for more

Is it just our bodies? 

Are we both losing our minds?

Is the only reason you're holding me tonight?

Because we're scared to be lonely?

Do we need somebody just to feel

Like we're alright?

Is the only reason you're holding me tonight?

Because we're scared to be lonely?

Scared to be lonely

Even when we know it's wrong

Been somebody 

Better for us all along

Tell me, how can we keep holding on?

Holding on tonight 

Because we're scared to be lonely

Even when we know it's wrong

Been somebody 

Better for us all along

Tell me, how can we keep holding on?

Holding on tonight 

Because we're scared to be lonely

Is it just our bodies? 

Are we both losing our minds?

Is the only reason you're holding me tonight?

Because we're scared to be lonely?

Scared to be lonely...

Eminem - Walk On Water (Lyric Video) ft. Beyoncé

I walk on water

But I ain't no Jesus

I walk on water

But only when it freezes

Why, are expectations so high?

Is it the bar I set?

My arms, I stretch, but I can’t reach

A far cry from it, or it's in my grasp, but as

Soon as I grab, squeeze

I lose my grip like the flying trapeze

Into the dark, I plummet

Now the sky's blackening, I know the mark’s high

Butterflies rip apart my stomach

Knowing that no matter what bars I come with

You're gonna hark, gripe, and that's a hard Vicodin to swallow

So I scrap these, as pressure increases, like khakis

I feel the ice cracking, because

I walk on water

But I ain't no Jesus

I walk on water

But only when it freezes

It's the curse of the standard

That the first of the Mathers disc set

Always in search of the verse that I haven't spit yet

Will this step just be another misstep

To tarnish whatever the legacy, love or respect, I've garnered?

The rhyme has to be perfect, the delivery flawless

And it always feels like I'm hitting the mark

’til I go sit in the car, listen, and pick it apart

Like, "this shit is garbage"

God’s given me all this

Still I feel no different regardless

Kids look to me like as a god, this is retarded

If only they knew, it's a facade and it’s exhaustive

And I try to not listen to nonsense

But if you bitches are trying to strip me of my confidence

Mission accomplished

I'm not God-sent

Nas, Rakim, Pac, Big, James Todd Smith, and I'm not Prince, so

I walk on water

But I ain't no Jesus

I walk on water

But only when it freezes

'Cause I'm only human, just like you

Making my mistakes, oh if you only knew

I don't think you should believe in me the way you do

'Cause I'm terrified to let you down, oh

It's true, I'm a Rubik's, a beautiful mess

At times juvenile, yes, I goof and I jest

A flawed human, I guess

But I'm doing my best to not ruin your expectations 

And meet 'em, but first, the "Speedom" verse

Now, Big Sean, he's going too fast

Is he gonna shout or curse out his mom?

There was a time I had the world by the balls, eating out my palm

Every album, song I was spazzin' the fuck out on

And now I'm getting clowned and frowned on

But the only one who's looking down on me that matters now's Deshaun

Am I lucky to be around this long?

Begs the question, though

Especially after the methadone

As yesterday fades and the Dresden home is burnt to the ground

And all that's left of my house is lawn

The crowds are gone

And it's time to wash out the blonde

Sales decline, the curtains drawn

They're closing the set, I'm still poking my head out from behind

And everyone who has doubt, remind

Now take your best rhyme, outdo it, now do it a thousand times

Now let 'em tell ya the world no longer cares or gives a fuck about your rhymes

And as I grow outta sight, outta mind, I might go outta mine

'Cause how do I, ever let this mic go without a fight

When I made a fuckin' tightrope outta twine?

But when I do fall from these heights, though, I'll be fine

I won't pout or cry or spiral down or whine

But I'll decide if it's my final bow this time around 'cause

I walk on water

But I ain't no Jesus

I walk on water

But only when it freezes

'Cause I'm only human, just like you

I been making my mistakes, oh if you only knew

I don't think you should believe in me the way that you do

'Cause I'm terrified to let you down, oh

If I walked on water, I would drown

'Cause I'm just a man, but as long as I got a mic I'm godlike

So me and you are not alike

Bitch, I wrote "Stan"

TODAY I MISS YOU MORE THAN EVER DADDY....

My life is slowing falling apart and I'm not sure what to do. I lost my dad. I miss the days you held me and the days I hear your voice. I miss the days you were there. When the angels ask what I loved most about life, I'll say you. 

RUN

Thank you daddy... "Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you dear"

This are the songs that makes us re-live those moments that marked our life's. Songs that make us fall in love with them since we first listen to it. Songs that will live for ever, even if we don't....

Robbie Williams - Feel

Come and hold my hand

I wanna contact the living

Not sure I understand

This role I've been given

I sit and talk to God

And he just laughs at my plans

My head speaks a language

I don't understand

I just wanna feel

Real love feel the home that I live in

'Cause I got too much life

Running through my veins

Going to waste

I don't wanna die

But I ain't keen on living either

Before I fall in love

I'm preparing to leave her

Scare myself to death

That's why I keep on running

Before I've arrived

I can see myself coming

I just wanna feel

Real love feel the home that I live in

'Cause I got too much life

Running through my veins

Going to waste

And I need to feel

Real love and the love ever after

I cannot get enough

I just wanna feel

Real love feel the home that I live in

I got too much love

Running through my veins

To go to waste

I just wanna feel

Real love and the love ever after

There's a hole in my soul

You can see it in my face

It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand

I wanna contact the living

Not sure I understand

This role I've been given

Not sure I understand

Labels are for clothes

People are reduced to stereotypes based on race, as well, and these are only perpetuated by social media trends. Religion is now a label some use to categorize people, and they assume that because one person of a religion acts in a radical way they all do. Many people in society sexualize being a lesbian, but if those same people saw a lesbian couple in public they would be quick to pass judgment. Gay culture has now become an attraction that a variety of people love to experience but then they base their idea of what every gay man should act, look, dress, and speak like based on one small fraction of the gay community.

People are constantly assigned labels by everyone around them based on how their outward appearance and interests are interpreted.All of these labels and stereotypes allow society to make us as only one thing, or write us off based on our appearances and interests. There is no label based on our personalities, our past, or our accomplishments. We are taught it is what is outside that matters to people and we must act accordingly.

We are so much more than the labels given to us. We are a sum of all of the unique things that make us an individual. The double standards and constricting ideas force us into a box and make us seem so much more simple than we are. Labels are for clothes, not people, and it is time we start treating them that way.

Odyssey

Fuck Labels

Labels are for filing. Labels are for clothing. Labels are not for people. Life is all about evolution. What looks like a mistake to others has been a milestone in my life. Even if people have betrayed me, even if my heart was broken, even if people misunderstood or judged me, I have learned from these incidents. We are human and we make mistakes, but learning from them is what makes the difference. #proudtobegay #loveislove #nolabels

Y los amigos?

Tantas cosas que vienen a mi cabeza

tantas patéticas alegrías

tantas patéticas ilusiones

que se funden con mi melancolía.

En este ser me he convertido…

tan sola, tan confundida.

Escucho la triste melodía,

y un par de lágrimas caen sobre mis manos,

aquellas donde mantuve

tu fotografía apresada entre mis dedos,

como si pudiera evadir mis recuerdos.

Hace tanto frio a mi alrededor,

que solo la sensación de cortarme las venas,

me alienta a tomar una píldora más,

una que me lleva a esa otra realidad.

Sentir como la sangre recorre mi muñeca

es sentir tus dedos rozar mi mano

solo un poco de morfina nada más

para llegar al clímax total,

sentir tu aliento una vez más.

Solamente quiero descansar de mi

Ya no quiero regresar a mi realidad,
ya no quiero sentir esta soledad.
ya no quiero sentir dolor en mi corazón.
déjame en paz, y llévame a la tumba ya.

Bueno creo que ha llegado el momento. 

Siento mucho el dolor que voy a causar a quienes queden, pero yo no puedo seguir asi. 

Cuando a una persona lo abandona la esperanza, los anhelos, los planes; no tiene sentido nada….acaso el futuro no esta formado por ese triangulo? 

Y a todo eso lo reemplazó una sensación de vacio terrible, y como la naturaleza aborrece el vacio eso causa el dolor. 

Y ya no puedo más, en serio. 

No puedo seguir fingiendo que puedo lidiar con la vida. 

Solamente quiero descansar de mi