Sia - Breathe Me

Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before

Hurt myself again today

And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,

Yeah I think that I might break

I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe.......................................

The Script - Breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.

Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love
while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break, no it don't
break, no it don't break even no.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces,
(One still in love
while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even)

Oh, it don't break even, no

FUCKING DIYING !!!!!!

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins....

I Love Your Bloodstained Heart

Once someone said to me "I Love Your Bloodstained Heart" ...

insane !!!

maybe but one of the most beautiful things someone feel and said it to me !!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU FUCKING IDIOT!!!!

Gratitude

People ask me all the time how can I???

If the only prayer you say in your life is ‘thank you,’ that would suffice. – Meister Eckhart

Gratitude means thankfulness, counting your blessings, noticing simple pleasures, and acknowledging everything that you receive. It means learning to live your life as if everything were a miracle, and being aware on a continuous basis of how much you’ve been given. Gratitude shifts your focus from what your life lacks to the abundance that is already present. In addition, behavioral and psychological research has shown the surprising life improvements that can stem from the practice of gratitude. Giving thanks makes people happier and more resilient, it strengthens relationships, it improves health, and it reduces stress.

Practice gratitude tend to be more creative, bounce back more quickly from adversity, have a stronger immune system, and have stronger social relationships than those who don’t practice gratitude. He further points out that “To say we feel grateful is not to say that everything in our lives is necessarily great. It just means we are aware of our blessings.”

People tend to take for granted the good that is already present in their lives. There’s a gratitude exercise that instructs that you should imagine losing some of the things that you take for granted, such as your home, your ability to see or hear, your ability to walk, or anything that currently gives you comfort. Then imagine getting each of these things back, one by one, and consider how grateful you would be for each and every one. In addition, you need to start finding joy in the small things instead of holding out for big achievements—such as getting the promotion, having a comfortable nest egg saved up, getting married, having the baby, and so on–before allowing yourself to feel gratitude and joy.

Another way to use giving thanks to appreciate life more fully is to use gratitude to help you put things in their proper perspective. When things don’t go your way, remember that every difficulty carries within it the seeds of an equal or greater benefit. In the face of adversity ask yourself: “What’s good about this?”, “What can I learn from this?”, and “How can I benefit from this?”

Hmmm Gratitude guys for each day ...... every minute ......... every second is precious ....

GRATITUDE!!!!!!

The Script - Before The Worst

t's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
You were vodkas and cokes, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking 'til the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to lose but so much to gain
Are hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
That you would drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you where mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then we'll rise above it, we'll rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we used to, just like we used to

Lets take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

I wish...

I WISH TO TALK ABOUT TONIGHT ...

Diana Krall - Cry Me A River (From "Live In Paris" DVD)

You're creating an intimacy that everybody feels,

that it's their experience, not yours.

I'll never introduce a song and say, now this song is about 'my' broken heart...

YOU FUCK ME....

Being around you is more than my eyes can bare
cuz itz crazy how i am wanting you more and more
but i know there could never be a future for you and me
the feeling is so strong but the timing is so wrong
your situation is so hard for me to deal with
but i try to deal with it so bad but i keep falling
and i stay looking for another reason to be out of your world
and forever gone
my head keeps thinking about stories we made together
then my heart leads me back to you
thinking that it could work
but knowing it won't
so i guess another lifetime is waiting on me and you
this other lifetime for sure
when our love will be worth so much more

Drake - The resistance '2010'

Yesterday when we were getting high, you were invited.

You would've liked it. I-I know you all too well.

I said that we could kiss the past goodbye, but you weren't excited, there's no way to fight it.

You can stay but shawty here I go...

Uh, should I spend the weekend in Vegas?

I'm living inside a moment, not taking pictures to save it.

I mean, how could I forget? My memories never faded.

I can't relate to these haters, my enemies never made it.

I am, still here with who I started with.

The game needed life, I put my heart in it.

I blew myself up, I'm on some martyr shit.

Carried the weight for my city like a cargo ship.

Uh. I'm 23, with a money tree.

Growing more too, I just planted a hundred seeds.

It's ironic, 'cause my mother was a flourist,

and that's how she met my pops and now my garden is enourmous.

It's happening Penny Lane, just like you said.

I avoided the Coke game, and went with Sprite instead.

Uh huh, that's word to the millions that they putting up.

I'm trying to do better than good enough.

What am I afraid of? This is suppose to be what dreams are made of.

But people I don't have the time to hang with, always look at me and say the same shit..(they say)

You promised me you would never change.

Uh. Am I wrong for making light of my situation? Clap on.

When 40 got some shit for me to snap on.

Now that I'm on, I don't really want to worry about getting back on.

I'm just trying to stay on, get my fucking buffet on.

I heard they just moved my grandmother to a nursing home.

And I be acting like I don't know how to work a phone.

But hit redial you see that I just called, some chick I met at the mall,

that I barley know at all and..

Plus this woman that I messed with unprotected

Texting saying that she wish she would've kept it.

The one that I'm laying next to just looked over and read it.

Man I couldn't tell you where the fuck my head is, I'm holding on by a thread it's..

Like I'm high right now, the guy right now, and you can tell by looking in my eyes right now.

That nothing really comes as a surprise right now,

'cause we just having the time of our lives right now.

What am I afraid of? This is suppose to be what dreams are made of.

But people I don't have the time to hang with, always look at me and say the same shit..(they say)

You promised me you would never change.

You promised you would never change.

Well all right. Uh. I live by some advices, girl Lisa told me.

The other day, Lisa told that she missed the old me.

Which made me question when I went missing.

And when I start treating my friends different.

Maybe it was the fast paced switch up.

Or the two guns in my face during the stick up.

Maybe cause the girl I thought I trusted was who set the whole shit up.

Or the fact I haven't seen em since they locked Big Rich up.

I know. At the same time I'm quick to forget.

I'm bout to roll me up a blunt with my list of regrets.

Burn it all, burn it all, I'm starting it fresh.

Cause half the time I got it right I probably guessed.

Did I just trade free time for camera time?

Will I blow all of this money baby, Hammer Time?

I just need some closure.

Aint no turning back for me I'm in till it's over.

tonight ......

so much to share ......

not willing to do it

tonight I WANT TO LOSE IT !!!

it's Friday and it's my day

Just to party all the way to Sunday

Maybe 'til Monday, I dunno what day

Everyday's just a holiday ... i decided yesterday

Crusin' on the freeway

Feelin' kinda breezy

Got the top down, lettin' my hair blow

I dunno where I'm goin'

All I know is when I get there

Someone's gonna "touch my body"

Excuse me MISS, I don't mean to sound like a jerk

But I'm feelin' just a little stressed out from LIFE MY FUCKING LIFE

Could you punch me in the stomach and pull my hair?

Spit on me, maybe gouge my eyes out?

Now, what's your name girl?

What's your sign? never ask that before hahahaha

Now I'm gonna make you dance

It's your chance

Yeah boy shake that ass

Oops I mean girl girl girl girl

Girl you know you're my world

Alright now lose it

Just lose it

Go crazy!!!!!

Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know (feat. Kimbra) - official video

But you didn't have to cut me off

Make out like it never happened

And that we were nothing

And I don't even need your love

But you treat me like a stranger

And that feels so rough

And you didn't have to stoop so low

Have your friends collect your records

And then change your number

I guess that I don't need that though

Now you're just somebody that I used to know ....

Casting light on the dark side of my heart...

Me partiste el corazon ....

pero; lo iluminaste me ensenaste que tenia corazón

me ensenaste a creer de nuevo ...

PARA TI ....

Hay dos cosas que no perdono bajo ningún pretexto es una mujer; que no sepan volar y que sean cobardes ...

Me importa un pito que las mujeres tengan los senos como magnolias o como pasas de higo; un cutis de durazno o de papel de lija. Le doy una importancia igual a cero al hecho de que amanezcan con un aliento afrodisíaco o insecticida. Soy perfectamente capaz de soportarles una nariz que sacaría el primer premio en una exposición de zanahorias. Pero eso sí, y en esto soy irreductible, no les perdono bajo ningún pretexto que no sepan volar, si no saben volar pierden el tiempo conmigo.

Miedo a perderte, miedo a quererte, miedo a amarte, miedo de ti...

De lo que eres, de lo que soy.

No soy fuerte, solo lo aparento, para que nadie me haga dano...

He creado una barrera, quizas no se vea pero se siente.

Quiero saber que se siente amar.

Pero mi cobardia no me lo permite.

Miedo a quedar lastimada y humillada pero mi miedo me lo impide a hacerlo,

Quiero sentirme querida y apreciada...

Pero no quiero hacerlo, miedo a quedar ilusionada...

No se si amarte... No se si arriesgarme, pero creo que vale la pena quererte y amarte...

YOU HURT ME ...

You let me down.

I really thought I could count on you but have learned that you are weak. Weak like everyone else. I really trusted in you and was shocked when things didn’t go how I expected. It made me trust less in you and made me really doubt my whole world.

You make all the promises in the world but you always get me back where I do not want to be. I know this is not all about you and I need to take responsibility in this as well.

You hurt me because I should be able to depend on you. I should be able to know you will always have my best intentions in mind.

I try to understand you and I get where you come from. It just is not always the best way to be. We have to learn from our experiences, we have to grow from them or we are force to learn greater lessons because we can repeating our lives.

Time heals all and I have no doubt we will be laughing again. We just need to figure out the best way to do it.

I will always love you. And I know, you will always love me.

I love you ....

I love you. In whatever way that you need. The ways that you don’t need, decide what you want. The ways that you don’t want, don’t see. That’ll be good enough for me. Most of the time.

Until we meet again (if we do),

TO LOVE

I will copy below the letters from Beethoven to his Immortal Beloved .. Beyond the drive, the challenge, the confrontation and defiance of fate, Beethoven clearly felt a great sense of inspirational motivation and a true appreciation of beauty in a world filled with hope and fear, joy and disaster, love and pain.

LETTER 1

The First Letter

July 6, in the morning My angel, my all, my very self - Only a few words today and at that with pencil (with yours) - Not till tomorrow will my lodgings be definitely determined upon - what a useless waste of time - Why this deep sorrow when necessity speaks - can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another; can you change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine - Oh God, look out into the beauties of nature and comfort your heart with that which must be - Love demands everything and that very justly - thus it is to me with you, and to your with me. But you forget so easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were wholly united you would feel the pain of it as little as I - My journey was a fearful one; I did not reach here until 4 o'clock yesterday morning. Lacking horses the post-coach chose another route, but what an awful one; at the stage before the last I was warned not to travel at night; I was made fearful of a forest, but that only made me the more eager - and I was wrong. The coach must needs break down on the wretched road, a bottomless mud road. Without such postilions as I had with me I should have remained stuck in the road. Esterhazy, traveling the usual road here, had the same fate with eight horses that I had with four - Yet I got some pleasure out of it, as I always do when I successfully overcome difficulties - Now a quick change to things internal from things external. We shall surely see each other soon; moreover, today I cannot share with you the thoughts I have had during these last few days touching my own life - If our hearts were always close together, I would have none of these. My heart is full of so many things to say to you - ah - there are moments when I feel that speech amounts to nothing at all - Cheer up - remain my true, my only treasure, my all as I am yours. The gods must send us the rest, what for us must and shall be - Your faithful LUDWIG.

LETTER 2

The Second Letter

Evening, Monday, July 6 You are suffering, my dearest creature - only now have I learned that letters must be posted very early in the morning on Mondays to Thursdays - the only days on which the mail-coach goes from here to K. - You are suffering - Ah, wherever I am, there you are also - I will arrange it with you and me that I can live with you. What a life!!! thus!!! without you - pursued by the goodness of mankind hither and thither - which I as little want to deserve as I deserve it - Humility of man towards man - it pains me - and when I consider myself in relation to the universe, what am I and what is He - whom we call the greatest - and yet - herein lies the divine in man - I weep when I reflect that you will probably not receive the first report from me until Saturday - Much as you love me - I love you more - But do not ever conceal yourself from me - good night - As I am taking the baths I must go to bed - Oh God - so near! so far! Is not our love truly a heavenly structure, and also as firm as the vault of heaven?

LETTER 3

The Third Letter

Good morning, on July 7 Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. ever thine ever mine ever ours

The Fray - Heartless

GREAT !!!

WITH A BROKEN HEART AGAIN !!!!

This is who am I ....

OneRepublic - Say (All I Need)

TO D.

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it (Better than you had it)

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it

FACE 2 FACE PROMO All You Need Is Love

YOU ARE NOT ALONE KAT!!!

Katherine Brooks

Lana Del Rey - Video Games (Live on SNL)

It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do...

Exhausted....

I am exhausted personally, and I have exhausted all avenues for help. I’m so exhausted I don’t even have the energy to cry anymore. I’m now just waiting ... If only I could sleep for a very, very long time and forget all this.

It’s been a bad week, and today really tonight is even worse. I’m taking ALL the medications again and the fucking morphine even that I am in pain constantly. I can barely get out of bed in the mornings due to every bone and muscle in my body being sore. I ache from head to toe. Of course, that makes me worry more. I worry that every little pain is something more than it should be. I worry most of all about shooting pains in my head. I have this one spot that aches off and on, that feels like my scalp is too tight or pulling in one little spot. Same spot all the time. I worry that it might be a cancer cell that spread to all the brain. Cells in the brain cause you to die very fast... Sometimes, at night, my heart will beat very hard for a few minutes, like it’s really struggling, and I worry that the cells have metastasized to my heart. I also have this little cough now, just when I lay down.

I hurt all over all the time. The pain feels like it comes from the bones. I essentially hurt from the inside out. It’s like my bones are causing the pain. It hurts so deep inside the bone areas and seems to radiate out. On top of the pain, I am still everywhere. All my joints hurt, too. I’ve always had a very high pain tolerance. I’m allergic to everything now. I can deal with the pain. I hate it, but I manage to survive it. If I had to endure this type of pain from now on, I could keep going despite it.

All I want from life now is a little warning before I am too sick to control my circumstances, so I can die with dignity...

Alexi Murdoch - Orange Sky - Live @ Easy Street Records

Well I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
Yes I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my brother standing by
With my brother standing by
I said Brother, you know you know
It’s a long road we’ve been walking on
Brother you know it is you know it is
Such a long road we’ve been walking on

And I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my sister standing by
With my sister standing by
I said Sister, here is what I know now
Here is what I know now
Goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love

But sister you know I’m so weary
And you know sister
My hearts been broken
Sometimes, sometimes
My mind is too strong to carry on
Too strong to carry on

When I am alone
When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone
When I've lost all care for the things I own
That's when I miss you, that's when I miss you, that's when I miss you
You who are my home
You who are my home
And here is what I know now
Here is what I know now
Goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love

Well I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
Yes I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my brother and my sister standing by
With my brother and my sister standing by
With my brother and my sister standing by...

Anouk & Sarah Bettens - I Alone [Live and Acoustic]

FOR YOU MY DEAR S.

It's easier not to be wiseand measure these things by your brainsI sank into Eden with youAlone in the church by and byI'll read to you here, save your eyes,You'll need them your boat is at seaYour anchor is up, you've been swept awayand the greatest of teacher's won't hesistateto leave you there by yourselfchained to faithI alone love you,I alone tempt youI alone love you,fear is not the end of this!I alone love you,I alone tempt youI alone love you...It's easier not to be great,and measure these things by your eyesWe long to be here by His resolveAlone in the church by and byto cradle the baby in spaceand leave you there by yourselfchained to faith

Elisa - Ti vorrei sollevare feat. Giuliano Sangiorgi - OFFICIAL VIDEO

Ti vorrei sollevare
Ti vorrei consolare
e viaggiare su ali di carta con te
sapere inventare
sentire il vento che soffia
e non nasconderci se ci fa spostare
quando persi sotto tante stelle
ci chiediamo cosa siamo venuti a fare
cos'è l'amore
stringiamoci più forte ancora
teniamoci vicino al cuore...

TO U.

Maybe you will read this, maybe you won't. Maybe you will run across it in a box years from now, and think it is the most beautiful thing you have ever read. At that moment, you will know that I will love you for as long as our lives together lasts... I have been hurt so many times, I believed that all love could do was hurt. I didn't believe in it at all. I live now for the day that I can love you more. I love you and I always will.

I do not know who you are, or how you are at this moment, but I just want you to know that I hold onto life and look forward to the day you will meet me at some place. I hate fate for letting me find you so late, but no matter the consequences, I will be strong, and I will look into the future because of you. I hope you can feel my love, and I hope that whatever you go through will make you who you are when we meet again. May God send you joy and peace, and love and happiness until the day I will find you.

Life can be cruel, Dearest, but it all comes to pay. I love you, even when you're still a mystery to me. Maybe this love is what makes us go through the pain we're going through, but know that my heart is beating with yours. Take care for me, and I hope you will try to seek me as I do for you.

Love always,

C.

TO U.

When I was a little girl, I dreamed of that one person that I would share my dreams, happiness and energy with... I could not see her face but she was there. I always felt like she was out there, I just needed to feel her. I visualized the bond we would have and the courage she would give me to endure life's obstacles. All these years I was with others, and feeling my way through life, learning lessons that later on would prepare me to become the person that I am now. I have felt alone and sad. Then one day my eyes opened and I became that little girl again ... realizing that she is there...bad timing I know ... What makes me happy is that I know that here in my world is the woman that I had dreamed of and I'd hoped would not miss our meeting in life ... that woman is you.

I wanted you to know I will wait for you. I don't need fancy gifts or 100% of your time, all I need is to know you care, and you do that already. I love your comforting words and I want to say thank you for everything. I have loved you as my friend for some time and I would cherish the chance to love you even more.

C.

Thursday - "Magnets Caught In A Metal Heart"

She spins magnetic rings
Around the dark violet heart of god
She's a magnetic field,
Shower of sparks,
When she comes on.

There's a silent charge
In a coil of wire
When the currents pass right through it.
We're coupled lines in lightning strikes,
We jump like birds on a vine.
We're the magnets caught in a metal heart
Where the blood is pumping through it
When the needle spins, it sings,
"Feels like we're in love..."

He spins magnetic rings that fall apart
When he's removed from her
He's a magnetic field
Under the silver of clouds
Where the lining of skies
Looks like the dirt on the ground.
His only true north is down

There's a silent charge
In a coil of wire
When the currents pass right through it.
We're coupled lines in lightning strikes,
We jump like birds on a vine.
We're the magnets caught in a metal heart
Where the blood is pumping through it
When the needle spins, it sings,
"Feels like we're in love..."