Wednesday, March 13, 2013

A gift from one of my angels Kami Kotobi





Slowly roused from a solemn slumber…
No longer dreaming… but yet, still lost in a dream…

Heedless of time, neglectful of my surroundings…
I strain to hold onto the images that rush through my mind’s eye…
Sweet remnants of a reverie…
Passing by just as fast as they vanish from my conscious memory for ever…

Unreservedly, I float in endless time and space…
Unleashed from the perils of the conscious mind…

At the core, I am one with the essence…
Nay, I AM the essence!

Time, futile and meaningless…
I am untainted and unalloyed!

Drowned and saturated with utter love!
I am immersed in a dance…
With YOU!!!

By: Kami Kotobi

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Fly...





In the begining of time,
the skies were filled with flying elephants.
Every night they lay down
in the same place in the sky,
And dreamt with one eye open.
When you gaze up at the stars at night
You are looking into the unblinking eyes
of elephants, who sleep with one eye open,
To best keep watch over us.
Ever since my house burnt down
I see the moon more clearly.
I gazed upon all the Edens that have fallen in me.
I saw Edens that I had held in my hands,
but let go.
I saw promises I did not keep,
Pains I did not sooth,
Wounds I did not heal,
Tears I did not shed,
I saw deaths I did not mourn,
Prayers I did not answer,
Doors I did not open,
Doors I did not close,
Lovers I left behind,
And dreams I did not live.
I saw all that was offered to me,
that I could not accept.
I saw the letters I wished for,
but never received.
I saw all that could have been,
but never will be.


An elephant with his trunk raised
is a letter to the stars.
A breaching whale is a letter
from the bottom of the sea.
These images are a letter to my dreams.
These letters are my letters to you.
(...)
May the guardian elephants hear my wish,
to collaborate with all the musicians
of nature's orchestra.
I want to see through the eyes
of the elephant.
I want to join the dance that has no steps,
I want to become the dance.

Feather to fire
fire to blood
blood to bone
bone to marrow
marrow to ashes
ashes to snow.

The whales do not sing
because they have an answer.
They sing because they have a song.
What matters, is not what is written on the page,
what matters, is what is written in the heart.
So burn the letters
And lay their ashes on the snow,
At the river's edge.
When spring comes and the snow melts
And the river rises,
Return to the banks of the river
And reread my letters with your eyes closed.
Let the words and the images
wash over your body like waves.
Reread the letters,
with your hand cupped over your ear.
Listen to the songs of Eden
Page, after page, after page.
Fly the bird path
Fly...


Thursday, March 07, 2013

Fighting the ego...





Anytime there is a struggle between doing what is actually right and doing what seems right, then your ego is interfering with your decision... Apologizing does not always mean that you are wrong and the other person is right. It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego... Never let your pride or ego stop you from reaching out to someone you truly care for.

... mind is foolish. Mind always goes on searching for excuses to fight. If you have a mind you have a potential fighter within you who is always in search of a fight with somebody. Why is the mind always in search of a fight? – because by fighting ego is gathered, becomes stronger. Through fighting you gain ego; if you don’t fight, ego disappears.

Once you stop fighting the ego cannot exist. Ego exists in fight; it is a consequence of fight. The more you fight the more ego exists. If you are left alone on the earth, nobody to fight with, will you have an ego? You will not have an ego. The other is needed to create it; the other is a must. Ego is a relationship, it is not in you. Remember, the ego is not in you, it is not located within you. It is always located between you and the other – somewhere in between, where fight exists.

There are two types of relationship: one is of fight, fear, hatred – this creates ego; the other is of love, compassion, sympathy. These are the two types of relationship. Wherever love is, fight ceases, ego drops. This is why you cannot love. It is difficult, because to love means to drop the ego, to drop yourself. Love means not to be.

True love in any kind of relationship means the fight has disappeared, the two have become one. Their bodies exist separately but their being has mingled. The boundaries are lost, there is no division. There is no ‘I’ and no ‘thou’; now one exists.

From The book: A Bird on the Wing

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