TO CM.... The things two people do to each other they remember. If they stay together, it's not because they forget; it's because they forgive.

I would never be able to forgive myself for hurting the most important person in my life. It was the biggest mistake that I have made and I forever would be sorry about it. I know that sorry would not be even enough to ease the pain and all the suffering I have caused you. Even if you won't believe me, this wasn't the way I was expecting it to turn out. I'm sorry and I'm deeply remorseful.

Hurting the person I love is one of the biggest, if not the most dreadful thing that I could have ever done. You loved me well and deep and this is what I gave in return. You've been there for my all my life. You were the person who was able to understand me the most. When all others have left me, you stayed and understood me through all my troubles. You were my best friend and my lover. 

I love you still and I hate myself for letting you go through all these pain. You deserve to be loved and cherished for eternity. I'm sorry ... I don't know what else to say or to do to make everything all right. You used to be the sweet person that cares for me. Because of what I did, it changed you entirely. I'm sorry. I'd be wishing every single night to have everything back to the way it used to be. I still want to share a lifetime with you,

I'm willing to do whatever it takes so that you could find it in your heart to forgive me. I'll love you even more and would never ever hurt you again. I'd rather die than let you go through the same misery again.

An apology is never any good unless it is accompanied by change. I pray that these words become actions, and that you’ll maybe get the chance to see the truth in them.

I am where I am because of the decisions I have made, and you happened to be one of those decisions—the decision to love you and the decision to hurt you. I am not always proud of the person I have been or the decisions I have made, but I am on my way to being something better. Thank you for being part of that path and maybe it was a mistake, but it was a mistake that we will both be better for.

Day by day, I'll be waiting for you. I'll be waiting for you to hold my hand and smile at me as if nothing bad has happened. I'll be waiting for your laughter. I'll be waiting even for eternity. Until then, I will confine my heart in misery. I'm sorry. I'm deeply sorry.

The things two people do to each other they remember. If they stay together, it's not because they forget; it's because they forgive.