TODAY I MISS YOU SO MUCH...

There are some days when everything falls apart, when things go wrong, nothing goes my way, I really want to cry but can’t, I feel lost and alone.

Even having lots of good friends around won’t help so much. I am grateful to having them in my life, for being there, because I know they are ready to do everything to make me feel better. But that’s exactly the case when EVERYTHING won’t be ENOUGH.

And they won’t be able to stop this desperation and frustration I am going through because they are not the reason for this.

And I try to make myself believe how much a good thing it is to have someone so special to miss and this thought is supposed to make me feel warm, but sometimes it just does not.

Sometimes I need more than just a thought, I need to hear your voice, I need to look into your eyes... Sometimes I need just to lean on you, to feel you closer…I need you right here and right now...

All I want is just to share some good news with you because it will be good news for you too... or to share my troubles because that’s the way I can lessen your pain... or to share smiles and laughter or you just want you to dry my tears because only you can make those tears disappear... I wonder if you understand what I feel, and how much I miss you... I wonder if you are so close in my heart, then why this is not enough and why you seem to be so far away.

Days like today I miss you so much that the entire world seems to be in darkness.