Lady Gaga - Dope (Explicit) (VEVO Presents)

https://youtu.be/lMyfd5w9kF8

Cork's off, it's on
The party's just begun
I promise
This drink is my last one
I know I fucked up again
Because I lost my only friend
God forgive my sins
Don't leave me, I
Oh I will hate myself until I die

My heart would break without you
Might not awake without you
Been hurting low, from living high for so long
I'm sorry, and I love you
Sing with me, "Bell Bottom Blue"
I'll keep on searching for an answer cause I need you more than dope

I need you more than dope
Need you more than dope
Need you more than dope
I need you more than dope

Toast one last puff
And two last regrets
Three spirits and
Twelve lonely steps
Up heaven's stairway to gold
Mine myself like coal
A mountain of a soul
Each day, I cry
Oh, I feel so low from living high

My heart would break without you
Might not awake without you
Been hurting low, from living high for so long
I'm sorry, and I love you
Sing with me, "Bell Bottom Blue"
I'll keep searching for an answer cause I need you more than dope

I need you more than dope
I need you more than dope
I need you more than dope
I need you more than dope

I need you more
Need you more
I need you more than dope

THE PRIVILAGE OF A LIFETIME IS TO BECOME WHO YOU TRULY ARE... 🙏

 

In examining whether to appear perfect or be authentic, we ask ourselves: what is love, and how do we create it? In seeing the breadth of myself in another, the competence and fear, the passion and inadequacy, and vice versa, an existential barrier is shattered. In that moment, the fear of dying, the purported clarity of impotence, and the sorrow of existence is washed away by an ocean of connectivity. The ocean isn’t perfect, its depths full of both tragedy and beauty; but it serves a fundamental purpose, providing all of us with the oxygen needed to sustain us.

Authenticity is about being true to who you are, even when everyone around you wants you to be someone else… To become authentic we require a thirst for freedom…
To be nobody but myself-in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make me somebody else-means to fight the hardest battle any human can fight, and never stop fighting
Never apologize for what you feel. It's like saying sorry for being real.

No legacy is so rich as honesty… THANK YOU BRO AND OF COURSE MOM!

Just like there's always time for pain, there's always time for healing…

Pain is a pesky part of being human, I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.

HEALING… I’m A SURVIVOR

To other survivors:

You are not alone. Not now, not ever. Crawl if you have to, but keep moving forward in the knowledge that you are supported, loved, believed, and not at fault for what happened to you. You are part of a siblinghood of people from all walks of life who know the type of pain you do. You will never walk this path alone, but your path is yours and no one else’s. Walk it in the ways that are most healing to you. There are more resources than you could ever imagine; find the ones that help make your heart sing again. Talk. Scream. Dance. Create. Write. Read. Commune. Speak up, whether in therapy or on a stage outside of your government’s office, demanding change. Do what you need to do. I will be here for you, no matter your choices. I will always be here for you.

To the ones that walked away:

Thank you for the good times we did have along the way. To be fair, it was a difficult period to be a part of my life. But even more than it was difficult to be part of it, it was difficult to lead it, and your unexpected absence made it more so. However, in the end, I forgave you, too. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it looks a lot like self-destruction at points. You missed out on seeing me grow into a stronger woman. You really missed out. I used to think it was my loss, but it was yours. It always will be. You walked away from a friend who cared deeply about you and would have been there for you in a heartbeat, had it been you going through turmoil. I wish you the best.

To my loved ones:

I can never find quite the right words to express my gratitude and appreciation for you. I guess “thank you endlessly and infinitely” is as close as it’s going to get. I love you more than I could ever express in words. Thank you for sitting with me when I was in darkness, celebrating with me when I was in light, and repeating that cycle with me every time it happened. Thank you for your words of encouragement, love, acts of service, quality time, and everything else that you have given to me. Thank you for wanting to learn how to support me well, even when we have our communication missteps and you accidentally trigger me or say the wrong thing here and there. I appreciate you bringing laughter and joy back into my life when I wondered if I would ever fully feel it again. I just cannot tell you how important you have been to my healing and how grateful I am that you have chosen to walk alongside me in it. Thank you for cheering me on at all of the little milestones of healing. Thank you for making sure that I would never feel alone in this. Thank you. Just thank you.

To myself, the survivor herself:

You are not just growing back; you are becoming a new creation. You are amazing. You are amazing on days where you reach milestones and blow your own expectations out of the water. You are amazing on days when your anxious thoughts could pile to the ceiling if you opened your skull. You are amazing, no ifs, ands, or buts about it. You have come so far and you will continue to meet your goals because that’s who you are. You are who you chose to become after.

I’m healing. Not healed, but I’m on my way….

SURVIVING WITH DIGNITY

 

This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy. I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community, and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can. I want to be thoroughly used up when I die, for the harder I work the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no “brief candle” for me. It is a sort of splendid torch which I have got hold of for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations…

PEACE

“There is a LIGHT in this world. A healing spirit more powerful than any darkness we may encounter. We sometime lose sight of this force when there is suffering, and too much pain. Then suddenly, the spirit will emerge through the lives of ordinary people who hear a call and answer in extraordinary ways.”
~ Richard Attenborough

“Wisdom comes through suffering.

Trouble, with its memories of pain,

Drips in our hearts as we try to sleep,

So men against their will

Learn to practice moderation.

Favours come to us from gods.”

To my fave people in the world….

Growing up we had an incredibly intense fraternal relationship. Thankfully, I now can call you one of my best friends. You are a great person, are having the time of your life with your close friends, and have a good sense of humor. We are still the same as we were child but we quickly learned that when we are on the same team, it is unlikely we will lose. We are resourceful and through a combination of our skill, we are a force to be reckoned with. Our relationship over the last few years has evolved and I appreciate all that you have done for me. I want our relationship to flourish so that we may support each other in our successes. The most valuable lessons you have taught me, in no particular order, are definitely how to: network, find solutions, learn from your mistakes, and how to be selfless. The most powerful thing I have observed from our relationship is learning mostly from not the things you have told me, but the values you instilled in me and the mistakes you have made. We are all human beings and make mistakes, but how we react and push forward, is what defines our character. You pushed people to help me and were constantly making sure we hit our goal. I cannot thank you enough for your help. You were incredible. You might read this and say, “Wow. That was brutal.” However, I think we have a lot of similarities so being hard on you, is also being hard on myself. Furthermore, thank you for all of your support and help thus far in life — I am deeply appreciative. I love you.

I have no words for you, my dearest, – I shall never have – You are mine, I am yours. Now, here is one sign of what I said: that I must love you more than at first… a little sign, and to be looked narrowly for or it escapes me, but then the increase it shows can only be little, so very little now…

At first I only thought of being happy in you, – in your happiness: now I most think of you in the dark hours that must come as far as I can look into the night I see the light with me: and surely with that provision of comfort one should turn with fresh joy and renewed sense of security to the sunny middle of the day…

I don’t know how to tell you just how much Íll miss you. I love you till my heart could burst. All I love, all I want, all I need is you – forever. I want to just be where you are and be just what you want me to be.

I want someday for you to be proud of me as a person and as your sister —- as your friend. I want to be near you and I feel so sad tonight.

NEVER FORGET YOU WERE, YOU ARE AND YOU WILL BE ALWAYS MY PERSON…

I ADORE YOU

AS A FAMILY

 

Life is too short for us to not do the things we wish to do. Far too often people become caught up in a daily work routine and are pretending to be happy. In the long-term, people often regret the time they did not speak up, made excuses, or a lack of commitment to their loved ones. Put your health and family first and everything else will fall into place. Your family should be a group of people you can always depend on — blood or not. Also, we need to stop complaining about the small problems in our life. A coffee made wrong, traffic, and being five minutes late are not real problems. Take a look around you. There is homelessness everywhere. It deeply saddens me because I alone cannot help each of these individuals. One wrong decision, accidental incident, or something such as medical bills, can put someone on the streets. I listened to a podcast yesterday hosted by Bernie Sanders on the healthcare bill. It scares me how expensive it could be to keep me alive if it is passed. Millions of people will lose their livelihood as a result. These are real problems. We must stop being selfish and focused on our own needs, and exert our energy on enjoying each other’s presence and making the most of our time. We are all guilty of this. I know I certainly am. Now that we are becoming “Adults,” Coco and I are no longer around as much. We must make the most of our time together. I want to learn more about each of you and have fun. Of course, life is a roller-coaster of emotions and having fun and laughing all the time is nearly impossible. But, we can make an effort to achieving such a feat. The last topic I want to mention is on being relatable. We have entirely different childhoods and are different people. This is fine, but we must find common ground and work to improve one another to fully enjoy life. Furthermore, this is most likely the fundamental issue, along with communication, that is the root of many arguments and misunderstandings. We can solve these problems together. As a family. AND WE DID IT!!!!

STILL SICK …..

 

Well I think everybody is individual and it takes you differently. All I know is that when you start to feel suicidal you've gone down so low that its very hard to try and climb back up and I think if anybody does start to feel exactly like that then they really must go to a doctor and get help.

I don't think medication is the be all and end all to help you with depression; it is talking to people who understand what you're going through and I think groups... people can help you on that. Especially people perhaps who've gone through similar and come back up and out you know. I've not always been positive.

Even now I still have my down days but I I've now learnt that they are my down days and sometimes I'm very depressed but again, just like my physical illness, I just go with it. I don't worry about it. I don't worry anymore because having the treatment I had when I had my breakdown I keep going back to that and OK I could be down I think to myself 'you've got to do something, you really have to go do something' because it's like a circle.

If you go down you could stay down and if you don't do anything you go wrong. You've got to try and break that circle and if somebody says, 'Why don't you go out for a walk' and you often turn round and say, ' I don't want to go' , or, 'I cant be bothered.' that's when you've got to talk to yourself very hard and say 'ok', because if you can keep your mind active enough to do something, even just go and sit in the garden or...

I'm not saying at that point you feel like doing any reading or anything but just giving yourself a little bit of exercise just to go out even in a wheelchair to go out to feel the breeze on your face and see the sun, when we get it, we've had a lot of that just lately! But even the rain, go out and just look at shops. Something might just click in you to make you feel just that little bit better. You certainly will be better than staying in and not doing anything.

CUSCO