My sadness standing around feeling sorry for myself is momentarily exhilarating dad ... I need to move on and wherever I go I will bring you with me.
I tried to force myself to not be sad and when I couldn't will myself to not be sad, I became frustrated and angry.
If my life was a movie, the turning point of my depression would have been inspirational and meaningful. It would have involved wisdom-filled epiphanies about discovering my true self and I would conquer my demons ... but instead, I felt nothing.
I still numb and pain ...
People say time heals eveything, but it does not... I feel you and miss you every day... I guess, its time to move on and pretending eveything is okey, when it's not...
I miss my dad every day. He was my rock he always knew what to say to get my self in line when I was starting to stray off course.
When you have that one person who is always there for you and giving you advice and is constantly looking out for you every day is really nice and gives you a feeling of warmness, comfort and wanted and important because you feel protected.
I lost him so I wind lost and confused and trying to find answers ... I'd be lying if i said i was ok or getting better... I miss my dad so much. He was my dad, my friend, my teammate, he was my family.
My dad used to kiss me on the forehead ... I missed that so much .... My dad was an honest man... He taught me so many things and i'm thankful to be called his daughter. It breaks my heart his absence ... I miss him with all my heart and wish i had him because no one will ever take his place ...
God, give me enough strength to pass through this difficult period in my life; give me wisdom to go through the trials I shall meet in my life with dignity;
strengthen my heart and soul to never lose belief in myself and honesty of other people around me; give me the ability to love, forgive and understand...
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